| 2004-10-14 - 9:00 p.m.
I need a time out
Sigh.
Just.
Sigh.
The ennui is devouring me. What is WRONG with me? Jesus. I'm taking my meds, I'm in therapy for chrissakes, I am DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT.
So why does it all feel so terribly wrong. I'm just permanently out of sorts. TWICE this week, I've had tantrums when I got home from work. Today there was actual Throwing of Inanimate Objects. Dented a can of ravioli and a can of broth. What set me off? Our freezer tends to get a bit like Fibber McGee's closet. It's small, like the fridge, and when it reaches a state of maximum stuffage, the avalanche begins. I went to the store after work to get some ground turkey so I could make meatloaf. The stupid store didn't have ground turkey breast, only regular ground turkey. Well. That's got as much fat as hamburger. So I harumphed home, planning to thaw some turkey. The avalanche of frozen goods started, I had this rush of ...well....rage. Rage and feeling all put upon, and I started throwing. Cleared out the freezer in one fell swoop, put it all in a trash bag and took it to the curb. So. There. Then I decided fuck the meatloaf, I'm opening my chef boy ar dee. Good thing, too, since I dented the can during my tantrum. What the??!? It's weird and irrational. OH yeah, and fund drive starts tomorrow. THIS should be fun.
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