I Read These:
Who ARE these people?
2005-11-20 - 10:07 a.m.
How can I wake up mad at my husband? That doesn't seem to make sense. I mean, give the guy a chance to DO something before I get pissed at him.
Some might be left over from last night. I don't object to him being gone all damn day to the football game. What I DO dislike is that when he DOES get home, he's of absolutely no use to me. He's been on the road, he's eaten for crap, he's been sitting in the sun/wind/heat/cold, and so he doesn't feel well. So he gets home, gives me a cursory hello, and falls asleep sitting up.
Last night, I had a beer with dinner, and for whatever reason, I have no alcohol tolerance. So one beer makes me feel pretty good for a short time. And while I was feeling good, I hit on him. And I THOUGHT he was all set, but when I went upstairs, he didn't actually FOLLOW ME. So THAT has left me irritated. He denies that he's not interested, but I am really tired of having to actually speak the words "Yes, let's have $ex RIGHT NOW" so that he gets the idea. And I realize that due to my prozac, I am not as interested as I used to be, or probably should be. But GEEZE. Make a move on me some time.
So that, coupled with some PMS, has me just....quietly seething. For no good reason, really. I mean, irritation, sure. But SEETHE? Perhaps a bit over the top. Whatever the reason, looking at him is pissing me off!
I have no idea what I am going to spend the day doing. A load or two of laundry, perhaps. I did some cleaning yesterday, but I'm not going to knock myself out. The kitchen is really clean, and that's fine. I have no idea what he's going to do...he WAS going to paint the ceiling in the kitchen that's been ready to paint since MAY, but I'm not holding my breath.
Sigh. I feel so bad and disloyal for being so peeved. I mean, he DID make me pancakes this morning, and he DOES do a lot. But...oh I don't even know. He's just so fricking SLOW. the parts of the house he's in charge of are just wrecks. Oh yeah, AND he has three things on his to do list that aren't done....get in touch with contractor about porch, find a place to eat on Thursday, and call the furnace people about getting the already paid for furnace check up. The porch thing is from a couple of months ago.
Dunno. Just feels like storm clouds inside me.
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